A daughter is a day brightener and a heart warmer!

While on a vacation to Kerala at my in-laws, I thought to leave my baby there for a few days so as to make her more independent. Being very reluctant and bemused about my plan, every night I tried to make her sleep away from me…with her grandmother. I never knew she has grown clever enough to understand that her mother is nearby and can come running at her smallest cry. So that’s what her strategy became every night.  This made me more frightened for how she would adjust after I leave.

Though everybody assured that she would remain contented and delighted here too, the heart of a MOTHER was still beating abnormally fast!

Finally the day came, and with oodles of kisses and a lot of hugs, I left my baby there with a determination to take her back as early as possible!

Sitting whole the way long without her being in my lap and without listening to her chirpy sounds in the car, the journey for the first time was boring even in the presence of other family members…I wonder how does the life of a mother revolves only around her children each and every time! Very true it’s said that “a daughter may outgrow your lap but she will never outgrow your heart.”

Then we reached home, here at Bangalore, where the weather is always at its best usually. But that day, neither the cold breeze, nor the romantic drizzling was able to set my mood…

Soon after entering inside the home, I realized how empty it is without her moving around. It was never like that until her birth! I felt like I was out of feelings till the time a little angel came to my life and started calling me mumma!

Now there is silence all through the places, toys all at their spaces, no clothes hanging down the cupboards and no utensils laying over the floors…no danger of putting hot vessels nearby, no worries of decorating delicate tiles…no fear for the future of some important document left by…and no more rules to apply….

The days seem much longer now…the nights have turned shorter…

BUT I still don’t feel normal….everything appears wrong….I do not want this much clean house, I do not want so much arranged shelves…It has become my habit to keep delicate and hot items all away from your reach…I don’t care if you tear away all the important files…I just hate this tranquility in my house….I only want you to come and overturn everything once again and for the eternity.

I am surprised how empty I was and I am without you my angel….will come soon to take you with me…to fill my living with life...

You will never know how proud I am of all the things you do.

You came into my world, so tiny and so small...

And I was in awe at the wonder of it all.

Then you placed your little hand in mine...

There was no denying, my heart was yours 'til the end of time.